Today was a pretty chill day: our team had a few seminars but other than that, we didn't leave Watakatifu Wote Senta to go anywhere. However, Brian, the GP director, did give one of the best Bible studies I've ever heard. The passage we studied was a familiar one, Mark 4:35-41, which is about Jesus calming a storm.
One of Brian's main points is that there are "storms" in all of our lives. There are external storms which are the difficult circumstances and events in our lives, and then there are the internal storms which are the personal struggles, sins, and anxieties we deal with. Many times, the external storms directly influence the internal ones. So Brian asked us, "Are there storms, either external or internal, in your lives?" My first thought: "Heck yes." Then he asked, "Are there storms in your life in which you fail to trust Jesus?" The Christian answer would be: "Nah (add emphatic hand motion), I trust Jesus completely." But my honest answer would be: "Yes, and in fact, I never want to trust Jesus. My first instinct is always to figure things out myself and to forge my own path in life."
That's what made my junior year so terrible: I struggled with so much crap but never did I really trust Jesus. Sure, I would pray that God would work His will in my life but that was just my standard God-if-You-feel-like-it-feel-free-to-help-me-out prayer. It really does take so much resolve and faith to trust in God's plan for us. Later, when I was writing in my journal, I wrote that I can expect 100% for storms to come in my senior year. And when they come, will there be faith? Will there be peace?
This would only be the beginning of the theme of trusting in God's plan through and through, in any and every situation.
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